VelvetMaiden

It's pretty amazing how much can change over the course of just a few months, let alone a few years.

Different job.

Married.

Own a house.

Paid off my car.

Diagnosed Bipolar II.

That last part is the more recent, and the scariest thing I've ever had to face. It's haunted me my entire life, and now that all the things I've been battling finally have a name, it somehow has become this overwhelming, massive, dark... THING. And it's me. Just... lil ol' me. But it's terrifying when you have to face your own identity, especially when so many facets that make up your personality are things you can't necessarily control.

It's because of the deep depression that lasts for weeks, even months at a time that I haven't done anything new in so long. I haven't crafted, written, drawn... I have done NOTHING but work in some form or fashion (whether it's my "job" or cleaning everything I can possibly find in the house) for so long... And only within the last one, maybe two months, I've finally managed to gather enough motivation to pick up a book and read.

I'm starting to get back into drawing again, although I have to say I'm incredibly rusty... and I can't make any promises that anything will get posted here again anytime soon.

But at the very least, I'm trying.

I have a new job! All my hard work has finally paid off, and I start working for Anti-Money Laundering next month. I am so totally stoked!

It has been because my schedule has been so full that I haven't posted any new art for some time. I haven't drawn or written anything, but I did (for a time) make jewelry. I really enjoyed that, and hope to make more soon. It's a very expensive hobby, so I can't do as much with it as I'd like. But I'll still be happy to share what I have made.

Nothing new has been created for Kooky Kawaii lately. There are a lot of half-finished comics just waiting for the last few hours of detail, but I just haven't had the time. More to come, though, I promise.

...... I had something deep and meaningful to say, but then I realized that I'm too tired to %&$#ing care.

Meh. -_-

So today I woke (IN A RAIN OF BLOOD!! Okay not really, but funny song reference there, couldn't pass it up ) with an idea for a new Novel. This idea that so quickly planted itself in my brain has already begun growing at an alarming rate. I've written down notes for the beginning, middle (which is so rare for me to find any semblance of "middle" in my novel ideas), and ending. Now all I have to do is put the words to paper. I have to admit, I'm pretty nervous about the concept of writing again... "You are your own worst critic", and all that jazz... but it's worse to never have attempted anything, right?

Which brings me to another point. I'm living in Maine, now. (Surprise!!) Actually I've been living in maine since December 9th, 2013. >_> Eheheh... ^_^;

So what brings me from the warm, humid, Southern hospitality of South Carolina to the snowy, rocky, sleepy state of Maine? Change. I needed change, and not just the subtle kind like wearing a new shirt that day, no.... I needed something astronomical. I needed to find myself. Now, granted, I have found bits and pieces of myself through moving to a completely foreign state, though the rest of me continues to remain elusive.... sneaky lil bastard that I am, lol.

I've also created a page for Kooky Kawaii and have begun (slowly) creating comics again. So for those of you who are interested, please feel free to follow my new Kooky Kawaii Facebook page. There's a little bit of new material there that isn't posted here on DeviantART, and I continue to post new comics about every two weeks (told you it was slow, lol).

That's pretty much everything I have to cover at the moment. Just thought I'd touch bases and give you the scoop.

So I haven't made much progress on the comic, but I also haven't forgotten, and I'm doing my best to keep in touch by updating everyone through this journal.